I’ve decided to make a major life change.

I’m really wrestling with the tension of juggling lots of balls and still trying to “control” my life. I’m beginning to realize that I can’t keep track of myself. That’s why we hired Tim Elzea as a pastoral assistant this summer. I needed two more hands. I needed ten more hours each day

I’ve always managed my own life. I answer all my email. I schedule all my appointments. Part of it is the unhealthy and unrealistic desire to be in control And part of it was starting out as a church planter who played the role or secretary, janitor, worship leader, and pastor for the first two years. I did everything or it didn’t get done.

I’m relinquishing control. Part of me doesn’t want to do it. But I need to maintain my sanity. I’m delegating my scheduling. It’s a weird feeling having someone else tell you where you need to be and when you need to be there. But it’s a necessary adjustment at this stage of ministry.

Just thought I’d process that out loud.